Sunday, October 05, 2008, 2:00 pm
I could have meet him today.. but I choose not to.. I really need a day to make myself happy or cheer myself up before meeting him again.. I knew that if I meet him today.. I wouldn't be happy at all.. and may make him angry again.. so it's better to stay at home today..
going to to dye my hair.. diy again.. keke.. hope can see the colour =)
1:25 am
I just typed a draft and save it in this blog, but don't think I'm going to post it. I want to keep it to myself. I need to think through something. Make it clear to myself. How to understand a person? And my conclusion is you'll never understand a person no matter how long you're being with him. I really don't like what happen today but it's always happening again and again, like repeating itself, the only difference is that the subject itself is different. I was always doing the wrong things without me knowing it. All this make me feel that I'm being to hate myself for everything I do. May be I should do less, talk less in order to avoid making mistakes. Although this is the wrong way to avoid problems, I'm planning to do this. Weird isn't it? Or may be I just think through everything and anything before doing something and saying something. Haha.. this means that I'll react even slower. Really need things to cheer myself up. I'm glad to be home. At least it's a place for me to behave freely and no mistake being make. I can really be myself, spend time with myself, do things that I like without thinking too much.
The new definition of home -> home = a place for me to be myself again.
Home sweet home.